Summary:

Seven years ago, Carol had a chance to start over, but she was still locked in her fears and it was more surviving than actual living. When her best friend Michonne made an odd suggestion, Carol never thought she could do something like this. Maybe for the first time in her life she would do something only for herself. She would pay a man for sex, but in the end Carol would get more than she expected and the man, too…

 

Rated: E
Categories: Alternate Universe
Characters: Carol Peletier, Daryl Dixon
Genres: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Rape, Carol/Other (Temp), Daryl/Other (Temp), Rape (Actual), Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 47 Completed: Yes
Word count: 154637 Read: 40696
Published: June 06, 2017 Updated: August 20, 2018

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1. Chapter 1 - The Odd Idea by BettyBubble [Reviews - 22] (2334 words)

This is my first try of a fanfiction!

Special thanks to my beta -  the amazing CharlotteAshmore!

Don't be gentle with me and let me know what you think! :)

2. Chapter 2 - The Choice by BettyBubble [Reviews - 6] (2309 words)

3. Chapter 3 - Preparations by BettyBubble [Reviews - 8] (2095 words)

4. Chapter 4 - Do ya think I’m a prick? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 3] (2340 words)

Sorry for the late update, but I was busy this week! My last weekend was a lazy one, so I pampered you! ;)

Expect updates once a week - maybe twice! :) 

5. Chapter 5 - Stop! by BettyBubble [Reviews - 5] (2344 words)

ATTENTION!
Just in case you find similarities in a scene I wrote, to a scene someone else wrote!
Chapter 5 of my story was published 2017, June 18th!
The other person’s chapter 24 was published 2017, June 26th!
You can also check this on NL tumblr and twitter!
I’m still hoping it happened by accident, but I wanted to make clear that I wasn’t inspired by another author!
Thanks for reading! 

6. Chapter 6 - See you! by BettyBubble [Reviews - 4] (2180 words)

7. Chapter 7 - Yer ready? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 9] (2345 words)

8. Chapter 8 - May I touch you? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 6] (2974 words)

Here we are with the new chapter - finally!

I hope you'll enjoy it!

Thanks to CharlotteAshmore - my heroine!  Take care of yourself, darling!

9. Chapter 9 - We fight him! by BettyBubble [Reviews - 4] (2194 words)

10. Chapter 10 - Thank you! by BettyBubble [Reviews - 8] (2605 words)

11. Chapter 11 - Connected by BettyBubble [Reviews - 7] (3203 words)

Thank god for the best beta on earth - CharlotteAshmore! 

Please check her story 'The Threads of Fate'! It's great!!!

12. Chapter 12 - Scars by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (2694 words)

Trigger Warning for violence and torture in the second part!!!

13. Chapter 13 - Sudden Decisions by BettyBubble [Reviews - 5] (2635 words)

14. Chapter 14 - See you? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 13] (2868 words)

15. Chapter 15 - Let me hold you by BettyBubble [Reviews - 9] (2602 words)

16. Chapter 16 - Cursed by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (3074 words)

17. Chapter 17 - Are you okay? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 9] (2936 words)

18. Chapter 18 - Close(d) by BettyBubble [Reviews - 6] (2887 words)

Warnings for domestic abuse and rape (non-graphic) in the second part!!!

19. Chapter 19 - Little Talks by BettyBubble [Reviews - 8] (4033 words)

I hope you’ll enjoy! My longest chapter so far. I thought about splitting it, but I guess it’s ok for you! 

20. Chapter 20 - The Wedding by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3956 words)

Here we are finally with another (longer) chapter! I just came back from Crete last night and my muse had a hard time on my vacation, but I hope you’ll like it!

21. Chapter 21 - The Wedding - Part II by BettyBubble [Reviews - 9] (3164 words)

22. Chapter 22 - The Wedding - Part III by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (3357 words)

So sorry it took me so long for an update on this story, but I was pretty busy with my challenge story Lost in Haunting Pictures and I needed some time to get back into the right mindset for this story. Maybe there is only enough room for one ‘Caryl’ in my head! 

I hope I didn’t lose my readers because of the late delay!

23. Chapter 23 - The Wedding - Part IV by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3187 words)

Thank you for all the lovely reviews! I’m so happy you’re still hanging on after the long break! Here we are with the next chapter! Enjoy! 

24. Chapter 24 - Take Me Home by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (3648 words)

25. Chapter 25 - Sweet Dreams by BettyBubble [Reviews - 10] (3047 words)

26. Chapter 26 - Morning Glory by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (4827 words)

27. Chapter 27 - Hope Amidst the Misery by BettyBubble [Reviews - 13] (3785 words)

28. Chapter 28 - Not Your Fault by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (2813 words)

29. Chapter 29 - A Dire Look Back by BettyBubble [Reviews - 9] (3811 words)

Please remember the warnings on this story! Trigger warning for mentioned domestic abuse, rape and torture!

30. Chapter 30 - Last Day On Earth by BettyBubble [Reviews - 16] (5195 words)

Some of you might've been pretty disappointed about the last chapter, but it was needed to build up the setting for this one, and I hadn’t wanted to post a 9k chapter, because even this second part is still long. Attention, my dears! This one is pretty rough and trigger heavy so I thought I should warn you. Triggers for violence, domestic abuse (actual), rape (actual but not graphic), torture, child abuse, murder, suicide, and minor character(s) death. Let me know if you want a summary of this chapter in the next update, if you refuse to read it, but still want to know what happened.

31. Chapter 31 - Moving Forward by BettyBubble [Reviews - 7] (3713 words)

Here we are with a new chapter, which takes us back to the present. It also contains the summaries of 'A Dire Look Back' and 'Last Day On Earth'.

32. Chapter 32 - Well-Meaning Advice by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3650 words)

33. Chapter 33 - Wanna Show Ya Somethin' by BettyBubble [Reviews - 17] (3257 words)

This was one of my first head canons on this story, and I want to emphasize that it's not only me who makes you like this story so much ... who turned it into what it is now. My beta CharlotteAshmore has a big part in it and deserves all the love! I thank her so much for her wonderful work and her tireless commitment! Without her, the whole thing wouldn’t have been possible!

34. Chapter 34 - New Discoveries by BettyBubble [Reviews - 13] (4786 words)

I hope you enjoy!This chapter contains mature content and adult themes. I have to admit that it wasn’t easy to write this chapter. Everyone has great expectations for this moment, which want to be fulfilled! Please don’t forget that I’m writing everything which happens in this story for the very first time. So I was very excited to write this situation, if you know what I mean!

35. Chapter 35 - Not Enough by BettyBubble [Reviews - 14] (3567 words)

Sorry for the delay, but real life made it very hard for me to write. I'm struggling with some serious private problems at the moment. 
Although I knew exactly what I wanted to write next, I just couldn’t! 

Seems like after the nasty writer’s block I am now able to find my balance in writing - my safe haven - and can now post regularly again!

'Warnings' for mature content and adult themes ... uhm ... Happy Valentine's Day!

36. Chapter 36 - A Silent Misunderstanding by BettyBubble [Reviews - 15] (3552 words)

I'm so motivated by your great reviews (thank you guys !!!) and I thought (after I finally overcome the writer's block) I could post the chapter a bit earlier than usual, right?

And please read A Prayer for Tomorrow by CharlotteAshmore! It's one of the best stories I've ever read and the perfect preparation for 8b! And even if we get disappointed again ... just read it again and again and again ...

37. Chapter 37 - Fighting for Him by BettyBubble [Reviews - 10] (3453 words)

38. Chapter 38 - Unexpected Encounters by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (4078 words)

Sorry for the delay, but my beta CharlotteAshmore was in the hospital. But more importantly, this chapter can now be posted because she is feeling a little better every day! I was worried, darling! Please take care of yourself!

39. Chapter 39 - Seek and You Shall Find by BettyBubble [Reviews - 15] (3468 words)

40. Chapter 40 - Everything by BettyBubble [Reviews - 19] (4684 words)

Yes, I'm late ... sorry! My brilliant beta CharlotteAshmore was struggling with a nasty flu. Poor sweetheart! I really wanted to nurse her back to health, but I'm too far away! 

Other topic ... I don’t know what's going on, but NL seems to have fallen asleep. Fewer postings, no new featured stories ... maybe it's the current season … I just don’t know! Caryl stories should still be our safe haven. Read, review and write! Only like this can we keep our love for the two! I have decided to introduce a story to you with each new posting from me - my personal featured story - which I’d like to recommend to you! Surely, there are some stories which you have missed so far!

My featured story this time: Angel Wings by Geektaire

Please read and review! The story is great and Geektaire deserves all the love!

41. Chapter 41 - A Happy Beginning by BettyBubble [Reviews - 12] (2959 words)

I'm still overwhelmed by your feedback on the last chapter.

Thank you so much! Of course, I will continue writing for you! 

My personal featured story of the week this time: I Don’t Dance by Marie1063 with some hot cuteness!

Read, enjoy and review!

42. Chapter 42 - Concerns and Confessions by BettyBubble [Reviews - 14] (4287 words)

Thank you very very much for now more than 400 (!!!) reviews on this story! Never would I have thought to receive so much positive feedback! Many thanks to all who read, favorite and review!

And of course, a huge thank you and many kisses to CharlotteAshmore for her wonderful work and support! Love you, darling!

My featured story this week is Rest and Relaxation by LeeLeeWoflpack. I've re-read that recently and still love it!

43. Chapter 43 - The Hole in the Ground by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3490 words)

Special thanks to CharlotteAshmore, who, despite her turbulent life, has found time to edit and did her job as amazingly as ever! I love you, darling!No, I'm not lost and this is not an abandoned story! Sometimes real life is stressful. Thank you for being patient and still reading!

My personal featured story (or stories) of the week this time: Torn and the sequel Torn II by Amanda Hawthorn! Great stories which will give you all the feels! Read, enjoy and review!

44. Chapter 44 - What the Hell is Going on? by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3392 words)

Here we are again with a new chapter! I hope you like it. I know, I'm lousy in answering your wonderful reviews, but I appreciate every single one and will definitely answer them, even if it takes a little longer!

My personal featured story of the week: It's Time by coreenfw! It's a oneshot which starts angsty and ends smutty! That's the mixture I love! Read, enjoy and review!

45. Chapter 45 - Uninhibited Desire by BettyBubble [Reviews - 10] (4285 words)

Adult content warning! Sorry, not sorry!

Thanks a lot to my incredibly talented beta CharlotteAshmore for polishing!

My personal featured story of the week: Hey Angel by Redvelvetunicorns! Give this hilarious and hot story some love!

46. Chapter 46 - What A Day! - Part I by BettyBubble [Reviews - 11] (3285 words)

Actually, I had planned one more chapter and an epilogue on this story, but somehow this “last” chapter turned into a very long beast so I split it! Have fun with the first part!

Much love to CharlotteAshmore!  Thank you for being there, with all your wonderful talent and the ability to cheer me up, especially after stupid trailers! *cough*

By the way, she just finished a great story again! We Can’t Do This Anymore is exactly what we need right now! Caryl on!

47. Chapter 47 - What A Day! - Part II / Possibilities by BettyBubble [Reviews - 21] (3289 words)

This is the final chapter and I’m kinda sad letting this go. This was my first story and will forever be something very very special for me. I was planning to write an epilogue but I’ve decided to give my readers room for imagination! :) Maybe I will come back to this one day, but for now, this story is marked as completed and it feels right for me.

Dear Charlotte,

Remember how we met? You were my first choice for a beta and oh, my gawd, I couldn’t believe my luck when you agreed to work with me. I bet you didn’t expect what that would mean lol!

You believed in me and helped me in all possible ways. You taught me everything I know and also shared your talent and the wonderful Caryl feels with me. But the most important thing is that I made a new wonderful friend. Love you so much, darling!