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I’m sorry that this might seem random, but I just can’t do it anymore. There’s too much negativity in my life and too much stress and pressure and I think it stems from this.


I have met some amazing people through this fandom, but I allowed it to control every piece of my life and it just isn’t healthy. I tried backing off before, but it just didn’t work out, because it was right there and I felt drawn to it. But last night everything came to a head and I realized that I just can’t do it anymore. I have to leave. For my own health, for my personal and family life, I have to.


Writing hasn’t been fun for awhile. I took a break for awhile to step back from it and my dependence on the feedback I would get to help create a sense of self worth that I just didn’t have anymore. The day I felt like writing again and sat down and began to type out the next chapter of one of my stories, was the morning I got the call saying my grandfather had died. Suddenly and unexpectedly after he had survived from an 18 month ordeal with near-death and come out on the other side. He had not been suffering. He was gaining back weight, moving around on his own, driving himself places, and making jokes. He got a flu bug and then his heart just - gave out. I’m not blaming writing, but honestly, I don’t see myself enjoying it again because of that connection it now makes in my mind. And having things sitting unfinished and people left waiting just… Stresses me out. So that part is done.


And honestly… I’m just tired. There is so much fighting and so much negativity and even tho there is beauty and friendship as well, it just has managed to stop balancing out for me. I’m happier when I don’t check tumblr for a few days.


I’m going to be a better mama. A better wife. A better daughter. I’m not saying those things are impossible to be while keeping tumblr or a fandom lifestyle - just that it is for me. I can’t do it anymore. I don’t have the strength to balance it, so I’m choosing things that make me happy.


Thank you all for being such a huge and important stage in my life. I don’t regret joining and meeting anyone, I just recognize that it is time to go.

Stories [24] Series [0] Reviews [208] Prompts [1] Favorites [19]
 
Stories by TheWalkingCaryl
Summary:

Spoilers for 6x13. This is my version of events before we see what really happens


Categories: Season 6
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1744 Read Count: 784
Published: March 11, 2016 Updated: March 11, 2016
Summary:

Angsty Smut. Takes place just after forehead kiss 2.0. 


Categories: Season 5, Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2515 Read Count: 1563
Published: May 29, 2015 Updated: May 29, 2015
Summary:

Daryl and Aaron talk about what is important at the end of the world. Inspired by a Tumblr prompt


Categories: Nine Lives Challenge, Oneshot, Operation Levity
Characters: None
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1529 Read Count: 807
Published: March 29, 2015 Updated: March 29, 2015
Summary:

Who knew that the gateway to hell could be disguised as a business card for a business that doesn't technically exist? AU no ZA


Categories: Alternate Universe, Family
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Carol/Other (Temp)
Series: None
Chapters: 16 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 31286 Read Count: 9845
Published: July 22, 2015 Updated: February 18, 2016
Summary:

He never got over the guilt. Seven months in and the guilt was settled so deep in his gut that it was the foundation that his life settled on.


Categories: Oneshot, Alternate Universe, Family
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Fighting
Warnings: Torture
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1118 Read Count: 568
Published: November 22, 2015 Updated: November 22, 2015
Summary:

The time comes to truly 'feel it'. 5x10 inspired ASZ oneshot.


Categories: Headcanon, Season 5
Characters: None
Genres: Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1530 Read Count: 1141
Published: February 17, 2015 Updated: February 17, 2015
Summary:

Carol muses on first impressions as she strips herself of her weapons. 5x12 (Prompt by CarolPeletier)


Categories: Oneshot, Season 5
Characters: None
Genres: Drama
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2653 Read Count: 476
Published: March 09, 2015 Updated: March 09, 2015
Fixes by TheWalkingCaryl Rated: E Liked [Reviews - 382]
Summary: Past Featured Story

 

No ZA AU. Daryl finds Ed Peletier, a new buyer for he and his brother. And then he meets the Mrs and discovers his need for a new kind of fix.


Categories: Alternate Universe
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Carol/Other (Temp), Drug Use, Sexual Situations, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 33 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 62626 Read Count: 21825
Published: January 06, 2015 Updated: February 27, 2015
Gone by TheWalkingCaryl Rated: T Liked [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Episode 3x09 Carol finds out Daryl didn't return with the group. Thoughts and musings happen


Categories: Season 3, Headcanon, Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2396 Read Count: 409
Published: June 30, 2015 Updated: June 30, 2015
Summary:

All that mattered was getting back to Carol and her capable hands


Categories: Oneshot, Headcanon
Characters: Aaron
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Character Death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3040 Read Count: 643
Published: September 16, 2015 Updated: September 16, 2015
Summary:

Missing scene in 8x14. Carol needs to fit into another Disguise and only one person knows how to help her face her demons and be what she has to be. 


Categories: Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 1373 Read Count: 477
Published: April 03, 2018 Updated: April 03, 2018
Summary:

Daryl had strict rules and a lifetime of lies, but it was the only way that he knew of to keep the promise he had made to Carol. To keep Sophia safe from anything and everything. 


Categories: Alternate Universe, Nine Lives Challenge, Oneshot
Characters: Sophia Peletier
Genres: Angst, Challenge Response
Warnings: Adult Language, Character Death, Daryl/Other (Temp)
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2442 Read Count: 553
Published: October 23, 2015 Updated: October 23, 2015
Summary:

Written for the Nine Lives Anniversary Challenge. Daryl and Carol celebrate a special new kind of anniversary.


Categories: Nine Lives Challenge
Characters: None
Genres: Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2726 Read Count: 535
Published: February 06, 2015 Updated: February 06, 2015
Summary:

Based off the prompts from The USS Caryl's: The Caryling Christmas fanfiction/fanart Challenge.


Categories: Alternate Universe, Family
Characters: None
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 11150 Read Count: 2612
Published: December 18, 2014 Updated: December 24, 2014
Peace by TheWalkingCaryl Rated: E Liked [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Borrowing from 'All Out War' in the comic-verse, this would fit in just before the end of it. Carol, Daryl, and Negan. Read the warnings please. :)


Categories: Season 5/6 Interlude, Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Character Death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2365 Read Count: 460
Published: April 27, 2015 Updated: April 27, 2015
Summary:

Eugene has many brilliant ideas. This is not one of them.


Categories: Season 5/6 Interlude, Oneshot, Operation Levity
Characters: Carol Peletier, Daryl Dixon, Eugene Porter
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy, Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 651 Read Count: 776
Published: April 02, 2015 Updated: April 02, 2015
Skills by TheWalkingCaryl Rated: E Liked [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

High School AU. This... may have gotten away from me a bit. Sexual situations happen.


Categories: Alternate Universe, Operation Levity
Characters: None
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3348 Read Count: 741
Published: February 23, 2015 Updated: February 23, 2015
Summary:

Time was linear and unchanging. It didn't slow or stop or speed up or skip, no matter what season of life or moment in time you found yourself in. She knew this was a fact. She also knew that sometimes years would pass between one Tock to the next Tick. It was something that happened, even if it really didn't. *Trigger Warning* Spoilers to 5x01. Set in Alexandria Safe Zone (comic setting)


Categories: Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Rape (Implied)
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2122 Read Count: 559
Published: November 10, 2014 Updated: November 10, 2014
Summary: Past Featured Story

Ed Peletier never died in the quarry. Join us. Sexual Situations Carol/Other (Temp) Violence.... sounds fun, doesn't it?


Categories: Season 3, Alternate Universe
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 14 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 19518 Read Count: 14198
Published: November 26, 2014 Updated: December 11, 2014
Summary:

"Daryl Dixon, you're saying that I'm your first?" She brightened and had to sit up a bit to turn in his direction, feeling both of his hands flatten against her back to push her back against the mattress. Before he could verbally remind her not to move she giggled playfully. "I love a man who can take charge in the bedroom."


Categories: Season 5/6 Interlude, Oneshot, Operation Levity
Characters: None
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 764 Read Count: 865
Published: May 26, 2015 Updated: May 26, 2015
Summary:

Set after the Govenor's first attack on the prison. Carol's survivor's guilt meets Daryl's attempts at being her Man of Honor. Headcanon 


Categories: Season 3, Headcanon, Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 957 Read Count: 428
Published: March 19, 2015 Updated: March 19, 2015
Summary:

Terminus was hell, but they survived. Daryl stopped talking about her, but he could never stop thinking of her. Three years later, and he still couldn't forget.


Categories: Graphic Novel, Oneshot, Alternate Universe
Characters: None
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 4003 Read Count: 936
Published: December 25, 2014 Updated: December 25, 2014
Summary:

A snippit explaining Daryl's thoughts during "Consumed" while they were inside the van. 


Categories: Oneshot, Season 5
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Child Abuse
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 613 Read Count: 536
Published: November 17, 2014 Updated: November 17, 2014
Summary:

After the events of Grady, Carol deals with pain dredged up by Rick's words days before as she searches out a gift for the funeral of Innocence.


Categories: Season 5, Headcanon, Oneshot
Characters: None
Genres: Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Adult Language
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1630 Read Count: 556
Published: January 24, 2015 Updated: January 24, 2015